Since blogging is considered to be hip within the poker scene, I decided to post a little update as well. It's been over 4 months since I publiced the last one, so knock yourself out. It's not a very long post, but that's because I'm not in a philosophical mood to question&answer every case in life. So I'ma just stick to poker in a Gonzo kind of way.

The main reason I decided to write in English, has to do with a couple of my foreign friends who're unable to understand Dutch. (n00bs: go get yourself a tutor)
So especially to Spug: clip ya drive by, mah ngga.

Uhm, well.. Poker hasn't been going very well, lately. I suffered some huge swings that neither pokerEV nor -grapher can draw. I've been playing all sorts of games simultaneously, as in mixed games, tournaments, S&Gs and cash games from 2NL up to limit $10/$20 Omaha 80b. But finally the tiniest bit of common sense in me said that this wasn't a succesful way to work myself up. (Yes, I have an addictive personality and I like to take risks) So, I've formulated a little side-bet to teach myself some discipline, with a bit help of others.

My personal thread with some hands I've played/graphics blablabla can be found here.

Although I haven't been winning a lot yet, I noticed that the bet certainly decreased my tilting tendencies. When I used to lose a couple of BI's I started to feel funky and became a little arrogant and stubborn. Most often, this came along with some sick laughing sprees and I began seeing everything as one big joke. The money I lost then didn't mean anything to me. Even the day when I spewed over 1400 dollars that I made in a couple of hours, while starting the day off with only $25, made me sleep peacefully that night. I didn't bother to think about my enormous stupidity for more than just a couple of seconds. But now I don't 'suffer' that kind of swings anymore. The degenerate gambler in me has been sleeping for over a couple of months already. This is obviously due to the fact that I'm not allowed to play any higher than 10NL. It feels nice that I don't have to consult iDEAL as much as I used to.^^

And it's kinda weird, though. Before I broke up with my bf in november 2007, I actually won a lot playing and grinding -God, how I hate that word- online on those low limits and he was just stuck at 100NL. And since the break up he seems to be winning monthly salaries, moved up like two limits, while I'm still stuck with a BR of a pathetic hundred. Haha, why am I thinking of a conspiracy theory here? Anyway, I cherish envy for that. (Lol - Brandon, I used the phrase again)
But I'm happy for you Billyboy, you've always had the discipline, tolerance and aspirations of a Donald Trump when it came to poker. GG.

Anyhow, big poppa Jordy of PN.nl offered me a new job inside the community, but unfortunately I can't really go into details. It doesn't include something audiovisual, btw, but I'm really looking forward to the kick-off.

Later more, now I go and play some cheap turbo fishfests, 'cause I'm in a festive mood. (That was laaaaaaaame)

For good or ill,
Q.